~~krizzy~~

for my birthday.. january 30..Ü

21 years.. i’ve been living in this world for 21 years.. have you ever felt this feeling i feel?? such a great miracle.. i am thankful truly thankful just for being alive and doing things i love to do.. making people laugh, smile and cry at the same time.. mang-asar, manggulo and give advices.. love and get hurt, broke a heart, break someone else’s heart and falling in love all over again.. yes i am definitely living the life i have always wanted.. the life God has prepared for me and it is all because of people around me who made me to who i am today.. for the past 21 years these people gave me inspiration to become "KRISEL"Ü

my family.. the most patient and loving people i know.. they’ve been there for me all these years..Ü

these people i grew up with.. my cousins.. shared everything with them from crying times to kikay days.. i just love them.. thanks!Ü

been missing these girls.. they made me cry and laugh during high school.. definitely the best friends i would always treasure..

high school would not be high school without them..  people i laughed and cried with..

My PPT 22 and PT 41 family made my college life even more meaningful.. love sharing those ‘toxic" days with them..

without this crazy gal college life would definitely be boring.. thanks for all those kwentuhan and sharing moments.. and those lousy times..Ü luvyah budz!

i guess i waited for 19 years before getting the miracle i have always prayed for..
the blessing i am always blessed to have.. my future husband and love of my life.. everyday is better with him by my side.. i love you mark!Ü

TOG, chikababes.. my girls.. truly nothing beats them for all the stuff whether studies, love, kulitan name it and i’ve got everything with them..Ü

21 years ago.. such an adorable little girl dreaming of a fairytale.. waiting for her journey to unfold.. to see what life has in store for her..

21 years after.. i am still dreaming of dreams, waiting for wishes to come true and continues to live the life God has given me.. so many trials and blessing have come my way.. and as another year of my life will start a better journey is what i am about to take again.. and everything will again be much better.. happy birthday to me!Ü thanks to everyone i love you all!Ü

"Expect people to be better than they are; it helps them to become better. But don’t be disappointed when they’re not; it helps them to keep trying"

so i got this quote from my prof’s handout that budz showed to me last friday.. what does it really mean? i dunno.. i guess everyone deserves a second chance or maybe even more than a second chance.. that’s the magic of loving a person you learn to forgive them, understand them and accept them for who they are even their imperfections.. cause when you love the person you love them wholly.. the whole of them even those little disappointments.. but sometimes it would make you think twice thinking if in the end it would all be worth it.. i don’t even want to ask.. i know i love him i just hate the way he treats me sometimes.. masyadong kampante.. yun yung term.. i rarely get angry kaya cguro pag nasaktan ako sobrang deep parang nalulunod nako.. di ko alam kung pareho kaming mali or nagclash lang tlaga ang paniniwala namen.. i guess i am just loving a person and getting hurt is part of it..  sabi p nga niya sakin

ako nga b tlaga? or baka ipinadala lang ako to teach him something about life.. i know i have learned a lot from him.. siya nagpakita ng faith ko siya nagpakilala sa akin kay God..i don’t want to loose him that’s for sure i just don’t like the way he regrets me thinking that whatever he will do is fine with me.. pero hindi.. i’ll just have to wait.. but like what i said before it is hard i even think its the hardest and even painful especially if in the end nothing has change..

since i am very sure n di ako makakapgblog for the next days due to the start of classes.. happy 19th monthsary honey! wow 19 months together in a few months 2 years n tau.. i am truly blessed because of you.. even with all the fights and endless tampuhans i still love you.. i think that’s what makes us unique and special in a way.. but i know we have outgrew that we both have matured and learned from each other.. i will continue loving you like you do to me.. thanks monksky! i love you so much! mwah!

so i have started a new hobby it is to stare at one side and once your done switch to another.. silly i know.. it seems that the day just passes me by everyday and everyday i wish i could get to see him.. but fate doesn’t really want to be with us as of the moment.. if there is such a thing as fate.. i am becoming negative again.. i dunno it seems that everytime we are given more time to be together the harder it is for us to see each other.. i miss him terribly as in the kind wherein you just want to cry… no joke i’ve already cried this morning.. i just feel so empty not being able to see him to think that i should be used to this kind of situation.. i just can’t really explain the pain.. hai kailan b matatapos toh? gustuhin ko man siyang puntahan di ko magawa last minute kasi plus my mom is in cebu right now so malabong payagan akong pumunta ng laguna lalo kung ako lang magisa.. hai bat b kasi kailangan pa siya magkasakit? i don’t blame him though my poor baby all sick and i couldn’t even do anything about it..

i was suppose to give him something.. hai ang hirap tlaga.. palagi nalang ganito.. ayoko na ngang isipin.. nasasaktan ako for the reason that i cannot see him..not for the reason he is cheating on me or other worse scenario.. thankful nalang din ako na he is truly loyal to me.. now i believe that waiting is painful.. ayoko n ng ganto mababaliw nako.. well at least i know he loves me and i know he takes care of me.. sabi nga ni budz di nman kailangan everyday or once every week kami magkita.. but still its hard to accept.. relationships like these are really for mature and tough people and i am glad that i am like that.. and i know he is too..i know that he will not leave me cause i can just walk away and give up right this moment but I WOULD NOT DO IT and I CHOOSE NOT TO.. that’s how much i love him.. miss you terribly monksky..=c

it’s been like ages since i last updated this thing.. been busy with my other blog at livejournal.. that one is pretty much updated.. i just feel toxic as of the moment considering the fact that i should be rejoicing since it’s already the start of sem break. Also my grades the past neuro cluster were okay.. thank God.. no remedials for me.. but the thesis thing just keeps on bugging me.. hinga malalim .. hai everything’s gonna be fine.. i know.. hmm.. i am still the happy old me.. still in love and continues to be in love with Him (marky).. my faith has grown i have to say.. although i still have a lot of things to work on i know i have a big guy up there looking down on me… I love HIM..Ü   here i am just staring at the computer with nothing better to do but bum myself out and of course put stress on myself with our thesis.. evnthough we haven’t done anything after the last proposal defense..Ü

staring at the computer i seem to see nothing.. i feel pressured well just a bit with the thesis coming almost a month or so left before our defense on our draft.. the struggles of a 4th year student..  hai thera 3 was done just a few topics left on our mixed system and sadly i did not pass 4 points n lang.. well kaya ko yun many people believe in me and they actually inspire to be better.. God is behind me all the time  i know He is just there.. namiss ko nga siya kausapin pero bumawi ako sa Kanya.. Mark is the reason i became closer to him and it actually feels good to know that someone up there is willing to accept and teach you.. to pick you up when you fall and just guide you to whatever endevour you would be facing..

i am still at blank dunno where to start.. hmmm.. blog lang walang magawa eh.. hahahaha..the past weeks were the highest i mean you feel a certain high when you love what you are doing.. i am grateful that my path lead me to becoming a PT someday i love what i do though i fail and cry sometimes still i know that someday this would still be the work i would love to do and share with others.. kahit mahirap as long as you are happy everythingis worth it..

staring at the computer i seem to see nothing.. i feel pressured well just a bit with the thesis coming almost a month or so left before our defense on our draft.. the struggles of a 4th year student..  hai thera 3 was done just a few topics left on our mixed system and sadly i did not pass 4 points n lang.. well kaya ko yun many people believe in me and they actually inspire to be better.. God is behind me all the time  i know He is just there.. namiss ko nga siya kausapin pero bumawi ako sa Kanya.. Mark is the reason i became closer to him and it actually feels good to know that someone up there is willing to accept and teach you.. to pick you up when you fall and just guide you to whatever endevour you would be facing..

i am still at blank dunno where to start.. hmmm.. blog lang walang magawa eh.. hahahaha..the past weeks were the highest i mean you feel a certain high when you love what you are doing.. i am grateful that my path lead me to becoming a PT someday i love what i do though i fail and cry sometimes still i know that someday this would still be the work i would love to do and share with others.. kahit mahirap as long as you are happy everythingis worth it..

Went to the mall of asia again… just joined my sister cause she had to go to the dentist again.. while we were waiting for my cousin to finish we decided to stroll around the mall.. I actually bought a pair of flip flops again.. andami ko ng flip flops o guess I am collecting them as of the moment.. hahaha.. un lang and then we ate at yellow cab.. Mama and Papa fetch us up at around 7 pm and we ate dinner at didboy’s..=) it was a restaurant in macapagal near mc donalds at shell gasoline station and after we got some starbucks.. yum! I got a café macchiato and the baristas were so kulit maybe because they don’t get to see younger people going there.. the place was practically empty.. and they kept on teasing my younger sister na fetus pa daw xa.. funny.. so we gave them a tip.. hope to come back there.. I’m still craving for coffee I dunno why…=)

i really find it hard to update things on my friendster blog.. hahahaha.. as if busy eh noh.. ang feeler!! hahahaha.. just check out my livejournal it is very much updated.. just wanted to share it to everyone..;) vist my blog: http:krayziejourneys.livejournal.com

so summer is about to end.. too bad.. but i love school because i get to see my friends and i rarely get broke.. hahahaha.. well just enjoying the last few days of summer.. sana maging masaya lahat..

hai dis week was quite tiring.. as in! for one i was sick for 2 days at grabe sobrang nakakainis un ha.. kasi pag ako nagkakasakit nahirapan ako huminga and everything.. hai.. but i am very ok now.. c papa uwi na dis sunday kay aion excited ako grabe!! yehey!! mark came by of course alagaan daw ako eh wala naman ginawa kungdi kulitin ako.. duhness!! hahahaha

hmmm.. recently got a message from my bestfriend clarice! grabe miss ko n yung girl na yun i mean we started as friends way back pre school days as in mga nursery p lang kami and i can say that she has not change even a bit..through her i have realized how importand friends are.. she was one of the first persons who showed me real friendship.. i can still recall nung grade 3 when we cried kasi she to transfer to assumption.. but i am glad that our friendship has not changed kahit siya di rin nagbago.. makulit at masayahin padin.. hai clars i miss you tlaga..=)

i guess for me FRIENDSHIP IS PRICELESS.. once you have shared it with a person it would forever stay in your heart.. Friends come and go but memories stay forever and nothing can take that away from you..